Adoption.

Here we go. The beginning of my journey, into discovery and exploration.

Options. For myself, for my child, for Brenden.

I went to the one place for answers that I never go.

Adoption is all over the place.

Children, being adopted into the kingdom.

Sarah, begging for a child, and promising to bring it back to God

if he finally let her conceive.

She was just overjoyed to have had the honor to be a mother,

And she gave the baby right back to the God that gave it to her.

Maybe that's what I'm doing.

This is the only way that this situation feels better to me.

God gave me this baby, and I'm giving it back to God.

This beautiful, and love-filled family...

They love God.

And there's no doubt in my mind that they will raise

my baby to love God, also.

Me?

I can try.

But that doesn't guarantee anything.

I have a big decision to make.

I just don't want to regret giving up.

Or maybe I'm not giving up,

I'm just giving in.

To the right decision.

The hard one, but the right one.