Post 1000! Dang it's been a while since I deleted my last blog.

Day Seventeen; My highs and lows of this past year.
The past year, 2010. Well, the year started with Kyle by my side. I honestly thought it would stay that way for a long time, and I guess it kind of did. All the wrongs had been forgiven, and everything was well. We were happy. Maybe a little too happy, too comfortable, too.. ahead of ourselves. January was focused on him completely, definitely a high point for me. I thought I had fixed everything and found my forever. February, the same. Valentines day, la da da. I got my favorite perfume and a rose. I'm pretty sure he got some kick ass sweaters, but maybe that was christmas, I don't exactly remember. I ended it at the end of February, due to.. being too comfortable? I'm not sure. At the time it seemed like a good idea. At times I look back and wonder why I made that decision. I guess it's one of those "you want what you can't have", and I finally had him so I didn't want him anymore? I'll never know. The first half of march was spent getting over him. Then I met Spencer. Breanne was my best friend at that point, and I spent every day with her, Joe, and Spencer. This was the point where I started growing up. I had a curfew, lost a little more communication, had a little more freedom. I took advantage of that a little. That's also when I started smoking regularly. Meh. I started working at Subway that month also. Hah. That's all I've got to say about THAT. April, still working at Subway, still dating Spencer. Started talking to Glen again.. May, turned seventeen. Me and Spencer broke up right before my birthday. I was almost dating Glen, almost. I thought maybe all the years of back and forth confusion had finally ended and we were going to be together, but of course being me, I screwed everything up. I ended it for good, and hurt him. But we're not going to go into that. At the end of May, I met Grace Burns. And the rest of the year was crazy, that girl changed my life. June began, and I was with her every day, from the very first day. Things got worse at home. Relationships began to crumble. I was hanging out with Chris Greathouse alot at this point, going to the Realm every week. I really liked him, but he was a sweetheart, and needed someone more "quiet and nice." I am neither of those things, so that didn't really work out. I met Jake, casually dated him for a little while.. Then Grace introduced me to Kevin. I know this is alot about boys, but that's how I remember what happened, when; by who I was dating. I love loving people. Judge me. Kevin changed me. It wasn't a super long relationship, but it was intense, and it was dramatic, and it was life altering. He taught me alot, good and bad. Mostly bad, but oh well. July.. at some point, I thankfully got fired from Subway. Anyways. Me and Grace went to a concert at Fubar. I met Alex and Jonah. I liked Alex immediately, and Grace talked about how cute Jonah was. We sat in the corner of the bar and fantisized about the four of us. Somehow, in the next couple weeks, we got what we wanted.. We both dumped our boyfriends, and began dating the two of them. They came over July 27th, we all hung out really late. Little things set my Dad off, and the next morning we got into a fight, and one thing led to another.. I moved out that day. Threw all my shit in trashbags, crying, had my best friend pick me up. Moved in with Grace for about a week. She then left for New York, and I moved into my grandma's house because she said I was too depressed to be left alone for a week. I ended things with Alex at this point and got back together with Kevin. We went 'round and 'round, he left for college, more dating and breaking up and loving and crying and drama. I got my new job that month, back to good ole' McDonalds. The end of the month I met Justin. Started dating him. It was a very destructive relationship. I got my high school diploma. This was all in August. September, still dating Justin. Got a second job at Halloween Express. October, me and Justin broke up. Still working two jobs. Took my first trip down to SEMO to see Connor. That name hasn't come up in a while, but he's still around. The trip was disasterous, and that's all I'm going to say about thattt. November, wrecked my car. Totalled it. Best thing that's ever happened to me. Finishing up foundations in school, cut all my hair off again, stayed single. December, school, work, Grace. That was my life. Still is. Blah blah blah new years came, got drunk, threw up. Fantastic night. And I'm finally at the end of this post. BYEEEEE.